My Story

Hi everyone. I'm a first time mama who works from home and my adorable baby boy, B, just turned 6 months old. I knew parenthood would be tough but I never knew how tough it would be. This blog is called The Trusting Mom because I am anything but trusting, and my ultimate goal is to be more relaxed about motherhood. I think in today's society we put way too much pressure on ourselves to get everything right and these lead to very high expectations, which can have a negative effect on our kids. I also find that I drive myself crazy over so many things that I can't just sit back and enjoy this beautiful ride. I know B's life will flash before my eyes, and instead of worrying and focusing on the negative I need to look at the big picture and savor these precious moments.

My lack of trust all began when I miscarried two years ago. Anxiety reached an all-time high when I became pregnant with B, and I just couldn't settle down and enjoy my pregnancy until pretty much the last trimester. I was always worried something bad would happen. I'd freak out if I ate a piece of pasteurized goat cheese because I'd google horror stories about listeria. If I didn't feel B kick at the same time every night, I'd freak out and call my doctor. What was that little white stuff I spotted in the toilet? Was that B coming out of me?? Even my OB told me to stop freaking out.

I had a wonderful labor and delivery but my recovery was extremely painful and difficult. B had a few health scares early on, which only made my already present anxiety skyrocket and for the first three to four months, motherhood was just really really tough for me. Add in sleep deprivation, a low milk supply, and working again on client projects and I became a hot mess. Growth spurts and developmental leaps made things tough because just as I was becoming accustomed to B, he would change on me. That's when I realized I wasn't capable of handling curve balls and isn't parenthood just one giant curveball?? I knew I needed help.

I am currently getting EFT to help with my anxiety, and my EFT lady recommended I write a blog. I'm called a "highly sensitive" person because things just get to me and ruffle my feathers more than they would another person. I know I'm not alone in this and hope this site can provide an outlet for me to share the good, the bad, and the in between of my motherhood adventures :)